Is God punishing me with a broken heart?

I`ve been dating patiently with a woman who I think is just everything I want. Tonight she gave me the blow off thing and probably does not to see me again. Consequently I have been drinking a little, not seriously but enough against God`s holy standards. This woman NO is not a church going woman. However she is sweet,no tattoos, no garbage, very clean,modest yet down to earth. Why don`t I find someone in the church??? There is nothing there. THEY SEEM WORSE THEN DEVILS OR ANY ONE OUTSIDE THE CHURCH TODAY SO I DON`T KNOW WHERE ELSE TO GO. I`m finding better quality outside it as a whole. So I take it I`m being punished and properly corrected. That or the church goers are all too old or married.